Lately, I have been confused and stressed out about what I am going to do for the rest of my life. I'm a senior and I need to face the facts that I'm not a kid and not everyone grows up to be a doctor or a ballerina like we all said we would be. Grant it there is no way now that I want to be a doctor, and I have been Irish dancing for 13 years so I don't plan on being a ballerina, but I still don't know what to do. I don't understand how some people can just pick a college and major and be happy. Stuff like that never happens to me, my whole life it has always been hard for me to make a decision. Well, I can always tell what is right and wrong and what will benefit everyone and I've always been able to easily make choices about stuff like that, but when it comes to myself I have always been lost. From picking out a toy at the mall to deciding what college I want to go to I just can't make up my mind. Let me think...so far I have visited at least 7 colleges and the number 1 on my list doesn't have a major I am looking into, plus it is extremely expensive! If I get accepted to the bigger college right next to my #1 choice I will probably go there because it has lots of different options and right now I have very different things I could see myself going into.
I currently have about 4 different idea's I have really been thinking about and I can picture myself doing for the rest of my life. They are:
-Education: I would probably become certified in grades 4-8 or maybe younger, or maybe even high school, I don't know, I never know. Then specialize in special ed. (probably) and minor in Spanish. I would love to be a Spanish teacher, but then again I'm not sold on it, plus it's much better to be certified in lots of different things so you have a better chance of getting a job.
-A while ago I wanted to look into archaeology, but I feel like that is a shaky field and I have just sort of forgotten about it recently. And when I say archaeology I want to like go to a different country and dig up past historical stuff, and I think that is really hard to find a job, so I think I'll pass on this one.
-Work in an embassy. I'm not exactly sure what I would need to do to work in an embassy, but I am currently working on finding that out. I am in love with different cultures and going all over the world, along with helping spread peace (not in a hippy way) and keeping good ties between countries so I think it would be a good job for me. My parents have sort of shot this one down though, like you have to be high up in politics to get a good embassy job, and what to study is a broad so I'm not sure about this idea.
-Lastly be an animator for Pixar. I know it is probably not an easy job to get, but I always do the difficult things. I will have 6 1/2 different art credits by the time I graduate and I have always taken my time with art and loved doing it. I am also in love with Disney, and no matter what I do in college I am going to work with Disney's College programs in the summer. Anyway, if I go into that but am unsure about it, I think if I also go into business marketing that could lead me towards it too, and with it I would probably be able to work for Disney/Pixar in some way, or at least find some kind of good job.
I know that my expectations are a bit strange and probably high, but they deal with things that I am really passionate about, as sappy as that sounds. I think that with any of those jobs I would be truly happy, and I am a hard worker, trust me, so when I make my mind up I am going to be what ever it is I want to be! I am all about fallowing my dreams, and all 4 of these pertain to at least one of my dreams, so I think I'll take a few risks in college and expect myself to work everything out, which, with help, I always do :)
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