I'm So Bored

Right now I'm actually in my College Statistics class, but I HATE it plus all my friends are gone. I'm really just posting this to see if I can do something totally unrelated in this class and actually access my blog from the school blogs, and I can do both! I could be doing some packet thing, but its not due for a while (well I don't actually know) but I'm not worried about it so I'm just doing nothing for this extremely long 5th period math class.

I feel like today is just going to drag on and on forever. I just came from a current events test, but I think I did well on, but it's only 10 points so it's not like it means much. But 8th I have an English test on The Prince and even though I did read it I don't think I will do very well on. I just can't understand what it's saying and I don't have enough time to truly decipher it! Last night I realized it was on spark notes, but it was too late.

As I sit here in 5th period I realize that I have had math for 5th period for 3 out of the 4 years of high school. The one year I didn't have math 5th period I had gym and it's not like that's much better. Right now I just wish one of my friends were here. The one is at a wedding and the others are at some thing for elementary school kids, if I had done a fall sport I could be with them, but I guess band isn't a sport, it just eats up all your time. Hey I don't have band tomorrow though! And one of my best friends is coming home from college! Yay, I won't be spending over 15 hours at band this Saturday!!!!! Sorry but I need a break, oh yeah and if you didn't know, I'm in band, well the color guard. I like band, just not everyday of my life. Last week we performed in a tornado (well tornado warnings) and it was AWESOME! I love band I'm just looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow and having a free Saturday and seeing my friend. Oh yeah and The Perks Of Being a Wallfower came out today and it was filmed all in Pittsburgh! I can't wait to see it. I was planning on reading the book first, but I'm reading like 4 books right now so I have no time to finish another one by tomorrow. 

Sorry I feel like this post has gone no where, but I'm bored so that's why this is so rambling. I'll put a real post up soon. Maybe tomorrow, since I have all the time in the world.

I had a good picture to post, but the school computers suck so this post will stay boring, maybe when I'm home I'll up date it.

PS I just realized I could have been studying The Prince this whole time...oh well.

English Is Such A Fascinating Class

I know I said I would post something for yesterday, but as you may know, I did not. I always come up with ideas of what to write about but then when I sit down I am either to lazy to write or can't think of anything at the given time. ugh I'm so confused! I am all the time, I have a list of drafts I've started and never followed through with, but I don't feel like looking through it right now...why am I so lazy? I'm not usually this lazy, wait, just give me sometime and I'll think of something to write and I'm sure it will be better then that stupid ring story I posted a couple of weeks ago..........

I'll talk about my English class because I just love it so much. We just started reading "The Prince" I'm not sure what to expect of it just yet, but either way I'm sure I will like discussing it in class. We just finished Oedipus which was interesting, but not my favorite thing to read, don't get me wrong though, it wasn't bad. Last Thursday I think it was my teacher had us all sit down in a circle around her while she read us the book, "Love You Forever." It seems like a really sweet book about a little boy and his mom, but we read it through an Oedipus lens and by the end of it we all wanted to throw up (sorry I couldn't think of anything more creative then "throw up" at the moment). If you don't know what the Oedipus theory is, well I'm not sure what to tell you. I wouldn't recommend looking it up it may gross you out, but I'm not going to tell you because I just don't want to. But the next time you read "Love You Forever" don't just think it's some cute book about a boy and his mom.

Aside from reading that we have also gone into other interesting topics. Tonight I'm going to try to go to the craft store so I can make a project on the allegory of "The Cave." This I would recommend you looking up. It is pretty interesting. My project is to think of a current scenario that is an example of "The Cave" and I have a really good idea. I am into lots of art stuff so I'm going to go all out on this because all it is supposed to be a visual that I have to explain to the class. I always end up taking lots of time to make projects though, just ask my art teachers, so wish me luck on finishing this in a week.

In the very, very beginning of the year (I know that wasn't very long ago) we watched this video that really made you rethink America. Maybe I'll post it, I'm not sure yet, but it gets you thinking, and that's what I love about it. Maybe that's why I like my current events class so much too?

I will try to write more and more through out the week, maybe if I have time tonight I'll make another post, who knows? I'm sort of in the writing spirit!

Talk To You Soon

So I was going to write a post today, but not I'm going out with some friends, so I'll just write to you on Sunday because tomorrow I have at least 12 hours of straight extra curricular activities (ok, so I'm in the band)! But I have like no homework so get ready for something long on Sunday, that is if I remember :P

Why Can't I Make Up My Mind?!

I realize that my last post was, well a stupid and boring story, and I apologize. If you liked it that's great, but I only posted it because I was too uncreative to think of anything interesting at the time.

Lately, I have been confused and stressed out about what I am going to do for the rest of my life. I'm a senior and I need to face the facts that I'm not a kid and not everyone grows up to be a doctor or a ballerina like we all said we would be. Grant it there is no way now that I want to be a doctor, and I have been Irish dancing for 13 years so I don't plan on being a ballerina, but I still don't know what to do. I don't understand how some people can just pick a college and major and be happy. Stuff like that never happens to me, my whole life it has always been hard for me to make a decision. Well, I can always tell what is right and wrong and what will benefit everyone and I've always been able to easily make choices about stuff like that, but when it comes to myself I have always been lost. From picking out a toy at the mall to deciding what college I want to go to I just can't make up my mind. Let me think...so far I have visited at least 7 colleges and the number 1 on my list doesn't have a major I am looking into, plus it is extremely expensive! If I get accepted to the bigger college right next to my #1 choice I will probably go there because it has lots of different options and right now I have very different things I could see myself going into.

I currently have about 4 different idea's I have really been thinking about and I can picture myself doing for the rest of my life. They are:

-Education: I would probably become certified in grades 4-8 or maybe younger, or maybe even high school, I don't know, I never know. Then specialize in special ed. (probably) and minor in Spanish. I would love to be a Spanish teacher, but then again I'm not sold on it, plus it's much better to be certified in lots of different things so you have a better chance of getting a job.

-A while ago I wanted to look into archaeology, but I feel like that is a shaky field and I have just sort of forgotten about it recently. And when I say archaeology I want to like go to a different country and dig up past historical stuff, and I think that is really hard to find a job, so I think I'll pass on this one.

-Work in an embassy. I'm not exactly sure what I would need to do to work in an embassy, but I am currently working on finding that out. I am in love with different cultures and going all over the world, along with helping spread peace (not in a hippy way) and keeping good ties between countries so I think it would be a good job for me. My parents have sort of shot this one down though, like you have to be high up in politics to get a good embassy job, and what to study is a broad so I'm not sure about this idea.

-Lastly be an animator for Pixar. I know it is probably not an easy job to get, but I always do the difficult things. I will have 6 1/2 different art credits by the time I graduate and I have always taken my time with art and loved doing it. I am also in love with Disney, and no matter what I do in college I am going to work with Disney's College programs in the summer. Anyway, if I go into that but am unsure about it, I think if I also go into business marketing that could lead me towards it too, and with it I would probably be able to work for Disney/Pixar in some way, or at least find some kind of good job.

I know that my expectations are a bit strange and probably high, but they deal with things that I am really passionate about, as sappy as that sounds. I think that with any of those jobs I would be truly happy, and I am a hard worker, trust me, so when I make my mind up I am going to be what ever it is I want to be! I am all about fallowing my dreams, and all 4 of these pertain to at least one of my dreams, so I think I'll take a few risks in college and expect myself to work everything out, which, with help, I always do :)

I Made It!

Here's just a little story since I haven't posted anything in like 10 days.

I was at my locker today and I was packing all my work to take home. At I reached the stairs I pushed open the door to go down the stairs and I realized my gold ring was gone. I had like a mini panic attack inside and turned around to back track from my locker to 8th period. I knew it was somewhere between 7th and my locker because 7th is ceramics and I remember putting it back on after I cleaned up the clay. I rushed down stairs hoping I would gain enough time to check my eighth and not have to check 7th. As I power walked through the halls and down the stairs I scanned the floor, but nothing. I reached my class but the teacher was talking. I kindly/quickly interrupter her and got out the fact that I lost my ring. She helped me look, but all we saw was a marble. I knew I was cutting it close to missing the bus, so I said good bye fast and scurried away. I was all jittery and afraid, I would just have to check ceramics tomorrow. As I ran towards to door by my bus all the teachers had already come inside. One of my favorite teachers from last year understood I was trying to get to the bus but called, "[My name, but I'm not going to list it for security reasons,] I don't think your going to make it." and I just shouted back, "Yes I am!" as I approached the doors the buses were still there. Just as I made it through the first set of doors one row of buses started to leave. I sprinted to my bus, I heard someone shout my name, and he opened the door and I jumped inside just in time! As I look my seat some one commented to me how I made it just in time. Then I looked in the bottom of my bag, and my ring was there, how? I don't know.

It's Nice To Meet You

I don't know if anyone is reading this, or if those who are reading this even know me, but right now I hope you don't know me. I hope you don't know me because then we can probably help each other out more and no one has to judge each other. But really, here I will be spilling all my little thoughts, ideas, fears, and what I think is right and wrong, but if I know you I don't want you to judge me. I am a bit of an extremely self conscious person so that is why I hope you don't personally know me.

If you don't know me then that is great! I hope that by reading this you do learn to know, understand, and like me, and hopefully in return I can somehow relate to you, but sometimes I feel alone, so that's why I'm looking for you. And maybe what I deal with is the same, or is relatable to you, and we can help each other out. As new-be and cliché as this blog already sounds, this is actually not my first blog. Please just stick with me I may surprise you, I surprise myself and that really means something.